My Take On Life
am craving Mac and Cheese…. Dearest boyfriend I want this special mac and cheese now! Thank you.
It sounds yummy!! Watching a movie with my roommate and my best friend. :) It’s interesting but it is not terrible. I am happy that I got to finally see him after seriously forever.
<3
Pizza sounds good and I’ve been on the edge of tear for the past 45 minutes. not sure why exactly just am
All I want in life right now is to eat pizza and cry.
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Hello little pet :) You will live with me hedgie, and pomsky :)
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Birthday was wonderful, I woke up next to the man that cares for me more than his own shoes. I mean he is the best thing in the world. Sunday night before my birthday as we went to bed I got nauseous and wanted to puke everywhere. What did he do? Well he stayed up all night watching me making sure I wouldn’t puke. What a boy! Any who! He got me toms for my birthday and keys to his apartment. My dear boyfriend you rock! <3
My best friend and roommate got me a flask and a cold cup :) been wanting a flask for months! I love her cuz she also made me dinner!!
Guncles present arrived :) A book, 2 checks, and a bag of make up and a make up bag!! Love them so much! Sent them a thank you because they mean the world too me!
Thank you Kyle (boyfriend) for my amazing birthday present!
Tomorrow happens to be my birthday, not any big number just 19 its the point between the big 18 and the big 20…. For some reason this year I haven’t been like OH MY GOD it’s my birthday tomorrow!! I haven’t wanted to scream it to the world or go do something crazy and huge. I have no idea why but it just doesn’t seem like a big deal… are birthday’s just not a big deal when you get older? Or is it the family stress and not being with my parents for a birthday for the first time in 18 years. Maybe family stress plays a huge roll in why I am not shouting at the top of my lungs TOMORROW IS MY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY! I don’t know I just don’t feel any different. Maybe at 21 I will when I am on the floor and someone has to scoop me up and take me home. Goodness do I feel bad for that person.
For some reason the past few days have been filled with a lot of emotions. Go to go to bed with the one person in my life that cares for me no matter how much of a shit show, bitch, asshole and many other things that I can be… and I end up bursting into tears…. I just for some reason can’t handle the thought of myself. When I go to write a post on Tumblr I end up almost wanting to cry, its been really weird lately. I am not sure if it is maybe again the family stress but goodness I am a huge mess….. Maybe I am just taking everything to heart lately… Its been a crazy week full of emotions and the past few times have been kinda hell…. Kyle does everything he is suppose to he won’t let me go no matter how hard I try and pull away but I feel like a burden…. He isn’t suppose to be there because I can;t get myself together… I feel terrible that I do it but it’s not like I can run away anywhere… he could hear me in the bathroom. God I just feel horrible. I am not sure why well I am such an emotional wreak right now. Listen to me I am going on for days… what the fuck? But in a reality I know that I have an amazing roommate though we may have some tough times and we may fight but in all reality she is my best friend my life line, she really is my everything at the current moment. My boyfriend well he knows me better than I know myself right now. He is always there for me no matter what I have to say and he always cares for me… He really is the best thing that ever happen to me. <3 My family though they are going through a shitty time they are here for me, I know my parents are struggling hard core but they still try to do things for me and they will always love me no matter what, my sisters well they really are my life line, my world. They have been there for me through everything and they love me no matter what happens. It’s rare for me to say this but my family, my roommate, my friends, and my boyfriend are the best things and the only things in the world that make me know that no matter how shitty of a spot I may feel that I am in they show me and tell me that everything really is better than I think and that I am not a failure, but a success. Kyle tells me all the time I am not a failure, and I know deep down inside that I am not, just like when he say’s babe you’re beautiful though I may have the hardest time believing him…. I know deep down inside he is correct. :) <3 You’re amazing babe and you’re the best and most handsome boyfriend ever.
